A sad band nerd

This weekend we had our marching contest and we didn't do so good. We finished 13th place out of 17 bands. Its not terribly bad but then again it just stinks. For my senior year (even tho state will not be an option) i want to do the best possible job i can. It just frustrates me when i watch the seniors of our band this year work. Most of them didn't step up to the plate and get serious. When we practice we need to practice like we are performing in front of the judges. Now I can admit that sometimes I didn't want to be at practice and I wasn't in the mood to march. When I didn't feel that way i did try to do my best. After we stepped off that field yesterday I was convinced that something had gone wrong. It didn't feel like the performance that we gave at the first contest that we went to. To me we sounded tired and our sound faded away at times. When we got into the stands I heard so many people talking about how they were so mad because someone missed a turn or something dumb like that. I was just upset and it didn't help when we were not chosen to go to the finals. Yesterday taught me that when you don't try your best and you are ready for the judges to give you a bad score it will always go that way. The judges could see that alot of the members didn't care and that they didn't want it. That hurts me most of all. I feel bad for the senior class and my class because this was our last chance to go to state and we blew it.